No. I don't think you know what love is. Ithink you have some serious issues with your mom and dad - and have not received the nurturing that you need nor have you received the RAISING that you need to know your own truth. You "boyfriend' used you like a whore and you LET HIM. that's the scary thing. It is not unusual to have sex at that age - or do stupid things like this but only if you have not a close relationship wth your parents. the closest thing to "love" you felt from this boy because of the skin to skin intimacy but that is not love and your parents reaction proves they do not know how to show nurturing. You should try to get to a therapist so that you can change and learn and grow so you don't have to do this to yourself again. YOU ARE A CHILD - so you cannot be "blamed" for bringing this upon yourself - this is your parent's responsiblity.