Scattered Thoughts

_{Tima Miroshnichenko}

Last week Monday, my niece showed me a photo on her phone of a pregnancy test kit with two red lines on it. I half-mindedly asked if it was hers and she smiled, continued to share she's 2 months pregnant. Shock came right through me and it was probably very evident on my reaction. I could not speak until some minutes later when I finally found my tongue and said "Oh wow, congratulations."

I knew she has a boyfriend but never really thought they'd be that fast, lol! Well, she lives with my parents (although not literally). She occupies the third floor of their house, about two-thirds of it. So maybe I expected a little too much of her, that she wouldn't go that far. But at this day and age, who am I kidding right?

No, I'm not the overly conservative type and I'm happy to have another grandkid...

Just that she'll be turning 25 real soon and she's still the laziest to do things, let alone clean any mess or sweep her bedroom at least. Last week, I literally had to tell her to clean up the dog poop which were splattered all over the floor of the storeroom upstairs at my parents. She had the pups play and do their things in the room when she knew there are foodstuffs and medicines stored up there.

Went up to check mum's meds yesterday and I found out that she just scooped the poops off the floor, tossed them on a box, covered the floor with rags and left them just like that. I was truly disgusted and upset but I quietly took them out myself and quickly went downstairs or I might start yapping at her. I doubt if she mopped the floor. Her grandpa is unhappy too of how untidy the place had become.

_{Andrea Piacquadio}

And now, she's having a baby...

It's quite hard to admit but it really bothered me and thoughts like, "How much more when she gives birth? Would she learn how to clean by then? Would she not just toss her baby's diapers here and there?" come a little too often on my mind. Maybe I'm just thinking way too much.

On the other hand, I'm also hoping that perhaps now that she's going to be a mother, she will start to think and act a little more maturely. Their mom (my sister) spoilt them from since they were young.

"Why do you stress yourself with something you have no control over?" the Farmboy scolded me yesterday when I was whining about how my niece is behaving. But I simply cannot help it. I cringed while scrubbing my parent's toilet and bath which my niece uses as well but doesn't seem to mind even when it's dirty. Or maybe I'm just way too obsessive?

Meanwhile, they are out today and right now, I'm absolutely in need of a long walk to clear this clog off my thoughts.