Adulthood is not a scam like it was projected to be by some folks. It is a necessary phase that should be experienced by everyone despite it's numerous challenges that always seem to make people believe it is an endless battle between themselves and the world. There is a major upside that comes maturing right, you get to reflect on the life you lived as a kid knowing fully well you were a different person then and if you do find yourself in that same scenario, things would turn out different because of a much more enlightened mind and a whole new perspective.
We all did silly things as youngsters that both felt like the best way to go about a situation and generally a way of life. Growing up I always found it difficult to make friends, every circle I wound up in I never seemed to fit in.... My social skills were poor In fact I sucked at relating with people largely because I always felt like there was never a need to make friends and I am doing pretty well on my own, minding my business and reading stories or novels, act solo dramas where I get to play every character that pops into my head- an embodiment of 'all by myself'.
And then at some point it hit me that I needed a friend, a real character in my play. I guess you would be wondering if I had a sibling or not, well I did, three of them in fact all older than me but I still felt like an outsider even in my own family. Knowing this, I set out to make friends. It was no walk in the park, I kept bumming out of ideas on how to make real friends since the traditional method was not working and then something dumb popped in WHY NOT BUY THEM WITH GIFTS And MONEY, a desperate move that will cost me a lot more than I bargained for. Operation buy a friend started off smooth and it seemed like I was actually in a legit clique making a few friends on the way. My first customer was Stella, I offered her some chocolate in exchange for her friendship and she completely agreed. This continued for years starting all the way from grade School till I was done with senior high. Since I was always changing schools I had a lot of buying to do and the facade kept working until reality reared its ugly head. It was the first semester in uni as a Fresher, I made a lot of friends with the same method but as soon as I went broke, all my so called friends left me high and dry,
coming up with excuses that made no sense for why they were avoiding me. That was when I realized how blind I was. If you start a friendship on a monetary basis, you pay for it your whole life and when you can't everybody deserts you.
True friendship cannot be bought but earned. There is a circle for everyone and a place for all even if you feel like you are meant to be a loner. I found my place even though it did take me a huge percentage of my life. Currently I am in my final year and still stuck with the friends that latched on to me when I had nothing to offer than a smile on my face. Good things take time and when they come, they last more than a lifetime.
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