Do you just read a book and it screams your story? More like the author took a peek into our life and actually wrote the book? this was how I felt the moment I read THE SUBTLE ART OF NOT GIVING A FUCK by Mark Manson.

Before reading the book I had struggled with inferiority complex for years and it steamed
from my body size.
You walk into a room and you’ll be able to single-handedly pick me as the skinniest in the room. Did I get body-shamed? Yes, a lot even by my own friends as they kept asking me where all the food I ate went. I was called a broom, a toothpick, the Letter “I” and any other word that describes being thin.

Each time I was reminded of how thin I was my self confidence shrunk, it shrunk to a point that I had none left.

I was pushed to take some appetite booster drugs so I could eat and add weight.

I would literally run away from whatever would land me in the spotlight as I hated everyone’s attention on me. I felt so inferior, I was smart, yes but carrying myself gracefully was a problem. I hated pictures as I appeared too skinny in them, I wore big clothes to hide my size.

This went on for years until a member in my church asked for me to be her bridesmaid and I bluntly said No, this was supposed to be a title every girl would jump at but I said No. What was my reason? I told her I would make a bad bridesmaid, I would disappoint her and would ruin her wedding pictures.

While I narrated all these dumb things to her a pastor friend was eavesdropping and after everything he asked I followed him to the church library and there he handed me this book without saying a word. I got home and started reading it.

Every word I read from this book struck a chord in my heart, the more I read the book the more something in me was awakened and the feeling could be likened to adrenaline pumping. I wasn’t in a hurry to read the book as I wanted to take it slow to fully grasp what the author had to say.

From that day I began to see myself and life differently. The book had built my self-confidence drastically as I began to love my body size and not give a hoot about what others said. On my journey of recovering my self-confidence, I had little triggers here and there, triggers that wanted to take me back to square one but I found a way of replacing the negative comments people said concerning my size.
Every negative word equals to a “don’t give a shit” comeback in my mind. It was working for me. I kept growing my self-confidence and after so much hard work what people said didn’t matter to me anymore as I rocked my body size with all pride and dignity, I mean “Skinny girls rock yeah?”. I started doing things that I would usually shy away from. I was so proud of myself and I couldn’t have been more grateful to the man that handed me the book. Right now whenever I hear anyone struggling with low self-esteem I always recommend this book to them and just like Mark said; The key to a good life is not giving a fuck about more; it’s giving a fuck about less, giving a fuck about only what is true and immediate and important.