This video is probably the most personal amv I will ever make. One of the reasons for me being a bit down is actually related to this video. It is dedicated to a very dear friend of mine, Patty, whose birthday it was yesterday. (yeah, only one day after me :3)
I know that she will never watch this video, nor will I tell her that I made it for her. I don't even know why I am writing this down here, probably it is my way of expressing my feelings, since I know I won't be able to keep it all inside.
When I heard this wonderful song for the first time, it felt like I was listening to our story. I cried countless tears over this song and this video, since it makes me realize how wrong everything went. I met Patty when I spent a school year abroad in Venezuela. We only got to spend some months together, but from the first moment on I felt like we had known each other our whole life, and I knew we shared a certain bond. She is one of the most important persons in my life, and I love her so much. As my best friend, my sister and my 'amiga de alma', my soulmate.
During this time in Venezuela I felt like without her... I would simply disappear and I know she felt the same way about me. I had a really, really hard time there, but she gave me strength. I don't know what would have been if I hadn't met her back then.
But everything comes to an end... The day I had to leave her on the airport... The day I returned to Germany and left her behind... was one of the worst days of my life. I had never cried that much in my whole life and it tore me apart.
Almost three years have passed since this day. She also came to Germany for one year, and we spent our 18th birthday together. It was wonderful, and so good to see her again. But ever since then I have had the feeling that we are chasing each other, unable to let go. But on the other hand I know there's no way it could be like it was before. She lives on the other side of the world, this is not a distance you can cross easily. It hurts so much that I don't know when I will see her again. It hurts so much that I can't be part of her life anymore, at least not how it used to be. In the end... I am bound by the memories I have of the time we spent together. I haven't talked to her in months. I know, I should call her. I know, I should write her and let her know how much she means to me. But I know I can't take it... only writing this description is so hard for me, I probably would burst into tears as soon as I hear her voice, just like on the first day back in Germany.I guess she was able to move on. Even if she still thinks of me as a good friend and someone she cherishes deeply... She probably doesn't feel as desperate as I do when thinking of her.
The concept of this video was nothing more than my feelings, this song, and the title I gave it. I believe 'Chain of Memories' fits very well. Not only to the song or 5 centimeters per second, but also to me. I don't know if I will ever be able to let go, but maybe this video helps me to make up my mind a bit.
Anyway, I don't care wether you read the description or wether you don't. After all it is a very personal matter. Just enjoy the video!
Anime: 5 centimeters per second
Song: Down
Artist: Jason Walker
Edited by: Anicsi
Release Date: 3rd of February 2010
Wind of Dreams Productions
