Hi Jose.
I would be lying if I said I can relate to what you are going through and therefore I do not have much experience in that to advise you otherwise. Although I am still the biggest fan of how you were giving life your best shot by planning it through and how you've lived your life so far witnessing it through your hive posts.

If you write down the list of how much has come out of your planning vs what you have lost out of it, you may realise that anything that was within your control, your long-term planning may have guided most of your decisions in taking one day at a time to overcome other uncertainties that never came to pass because of the planning and focus you had.

You mentioned managing your health for the past 30 years and that alone just made me wonder why God even chose to keep you this long, and would rather take the healthiest beings in just a second. And why even top your health challenges with all the losses and struggles that come your way? The only thing I AM certain of is that the level of trust God and the universe have in your strength and life purpose is really outstanding! The question is what they both plan to do with it and that is something only time will tell!

I am dropping you a big hug from me 🤗 and these two songs while you take one day at a time on this life journey. Keep up with your awesome energy, and wisdom in giving your life purpose the best shot and bear in mind that it is okay to feel broken sometimes, to ask the Man Above for answers when you feel conflicted and to take one day at a time.