Oh sorry you really pass through alot and the is life for you, alot people do forget the past and future.

All they focus on is present, and this have lead alot of people to future problem, some people are heartless and wicked.

So with all you have did for him in the past, he can't think of one and because of that to give you sometime to find a place.

And he know you have no where to go to, sometimes those people you think they will help you do be the source to your problem.

And your mother is in hospital she needs money and your dad have dead, to me dead is not the solution.

But you can go to your boss place and the him or her your situation and maybe he can be source of help.

Or you beg your boss to let you to be sleeping at he or her shop, or sleep in his or her compound.

So that you surggle and make money, because going back to your mother which is in hospital, what will use to take care of her.

And you say you choose death, who will take care of yourself mother or you want her to dead or you want all your family not to exciting on earth.

That is very bad thing, all you need is to be strong, pray to God for help, surggle and make save some money.

So that you can put your friend to shame and you will care of yourself mother and make yourself family great.

So that all your enemies will come and bow down before you.
You know when there is still life, there is hope but a dead person can not make it again no hope for such.