To be able to express all your sadness and fear and anxiety and rebirth in such a way is incredible. I hope you know that. Do you still tattoo? It seems a shame not to pursue art (and honestly, tattooing is probably my favorite expression of visual art atm), because you're good at it. you're also really good with words, in both languages ;) I agree you shouldn't translate. You can't express the same feelings in the same way in two different languages. Maybe translators can, but writers, I've found, not so much.

remembered all of my moments of strenght.

I hope you also remembered this moment here, now. It might not look like it, but there's such resilience and strength evident in every syllable.