'Love and Hate Relationship'
My father once told me an unusual story about a Nobel Prize Winner. He's a professor of chemistry and he always wears a T-Shirt where in bold letters the words written are 'I HATE CHEMISTRY'. We both found it very strange. If he hates chemistry, why would he practice it?
Anyway, I wasn't really happy when I got admitted to CUET Architecture. The frustrating life that included nonstop projects, jury, presentations drove me completely crazy. Creating something and being satisfied with it is the toughest thing of all. And the never ending dissatisfaction made my life even worse. So at one point, I decided.
I decided that I'd leave. I'd try for something easier.
Before finally deciding to change my subject I asked myself one final question: 'What would really make me happy? What would give me satisfaction as well as pleasure?' It took me a year but I found it out. I found my answer. It was simple. The answer was: Creating. Only creating would make me happy. If I cannot create I can never survive. And architecture shows me every possible way to do that. I found out that I both love and hate architecture. It gives me dissatisfaction but it gives me hope to create.
It creates within me displeasure, but can we ever find pleasure without displeasure?
Reassessing the story of the Chemistry professor and his T-shirt, I wonder what a pure 'love and hate' relationship he has with chemistry!
All I hope now is my relationship with architecture will keep growing stronger and I hope I will love it as well as hate it till the end!..
