Hi I am _____. It's Hiimcasper if we are using our made-up names. Kind of like a friendly neighbourhood ghost.
Alright, alright. I intended to start my steem blog several times before and I even wrote a few different copies of my introduction (ok... just one and a half) where I tried to present different personas to seem interesting or more intellectual. But I never posted them because it didn't seem like it was the real me. I know it sounds cheesy at first, but when you think about it, you will realize most of us are putting on a facade to some degree to fit in better in the society or to make more out of the society. (And kudos to those who have been true to yourself any everyone else for your entire life).
Anyways... I figured if I cannot be entirely honest under a pseudonym AND in a blockchain network, I never will. I am a compulsive liar IRL for no reason. I just like making up stories or putting up false persona of myself to people with or without any benefits. So this blog is my attempt at being truthful to the world in a guise.
Don't worry. My secrets aren't so dark that you would need to call a cop. In fact they are just self deprecating because I am a lazy depressed 23 year old living with his parents who got suspended from school for a year for failing the same course three times. I wouldn't say I am stupid. But I am not that smart either. People around me tend to think I am somewhat intelligent for whatever reason. Maybe my compulsive lying draws that kind of image? Well, I feel like I am a bit overrated.
Enough clever self deprecating ranting, you say! (see how I blow my own horn?) Ok. Let's get to the point of this blog.
Like I said, I am a 23 year old. I study a mashup of biology, computer science, math and statistics. But I am pretty bad at studying. So I will say I only dabble in those subjects. I know a little bit of everything to hold a conversation and make it seem like I know my shit. Honestly though, I don't. I wish I knew more about these subjects. They are kind of interesting. That bring me to the second point. I am depressed and have ADHD. Makes it really hard to sit down and focus and get good at something. When I sit down with my textbook, the intolerable urge to check whether Bitcoin's price changed by 0.14% kicks in and ofc my muscle memory doesn't let me ask from permission from the "mom" of my brain. (The "mom" in the brain is the part that does the rational thinking).
As you realized, like most of the steemers/steemians here, I am into crypto. (I like steemans but the feminists will kill me.) Now crypto isn't my entire life. But I do dream of that day I become a bitcoin millionaire. Keep in mind, I said DREAM. I am a realist when it comes to price action. But hey, let a man dream. You can dream with me if you want! Life is an open field for dreamers. (I don't even know what that is supposed to mean.)
I just wrote two more paragraphs and still didn't explain why this blog exists. Last attempt.
I am one of those people that listen to guys like Tim Ferris and try to make lifestyle changes to become successful, but fails miserably in every attempt or every other attempt. My declining mental health hasn't been that helpful in preventing that either. I still have hopes though - that one day I can actually wake up at 5, go to gym and lift more than that scrawny kid that used to lift less than me two years ago and now lifts twice as much me, then eat a healthy breakfast and go to work to actually work instead of dozing all day. And this blog is a diary for the journey to become that person. No matter how successful or not successful I am at that journey, I will be here writing about it. I will be noting down every little pitfall to let at least one of you know that you are not alone. Now I don't really have any expectation that anyone will actually read it. If you are reading this right now.... Ahh... I don't know what to say. Thank you and hope to see you again. Or hope to have you read my writing again (I think that makes more sense).
P.S. I am not giving any shit about grammar. I am not proofreading. It raw... very much raw. But maybe I will start proofreading if people actually read my stuff and complain about my Engrish.
TL;DR This is the start of a lifestyle blog that will talk about failures of lifestyle changes more than successes. But hopefully with some successes. After all, It will be an honest diary of my journey at changing myself with a touch of data, data analysis, philosophy, references, poetry, some bad memes, some salt and pepper, and some terrible humor. Hope that sold it!
You decide.
