12:15 Sat July 11 2020
This is my first microdose. I didn’t weigh it because its infused in honey but I basically eyeballed what I think is less than a tenth of what I was told is a “full dose”. I feel nervous anticipation. Slight bloating from breakfast. Currently have a slight headache, likely a tension headache based on how it feels.
For reference I slept basically on the floor at a friends for the last two days, so the pain is related to that. My mood is stable. I am slightly nervous but overall calm being here in my home space.
I’m just going to get to work starting with editing a podcast for a job. Then perhaps I will dive into gardening or maybe even working on making clothes based off of some recent patterns saved on Pinterest.
I’ve heard interesting things in regards to it including it helps with: depression, anxiety, autism in general, ptsd, creativity, productivity. All things that interest me. The point of this is to see whether the claims hold true for me personally. In the future I intend to add lions mane mushrooms, for neuroplasticity.
What was likely less than half a cap of mushroom in some honey was mixed in my little cactus shot glass with lime juice as told to me by the shaman I received these from. I know vitamin c supposedly helps the effect and have drank orange juice in the past during acid trips, so decided to do it that way. I used a dab tool with a small amount, mixed them and drank. Couldn’t notice a taste.
12:37 Feeling sleepy and high but there’s a good chance that’s related to the dab I smoked right before I took the mushrooms. Mood is good. Feel a sort of anticipation but not convinced that’s the mushrooms..yet.
12:51 Feeling stimmyI noticed that while podcast editing and I was picking at my skin. Picked up a stim toy when I realized. Much better.
1:15 Officially multitasking. Listening through the podcast removing speech issues and breaks while crocheting. Feel slightly short of breath. Have a weird feeling in my gut.
1:33 Still high, weird taste in my mouth but productive and still multitasking
1:44 Finished podcast. Probably plan to dab more and eat ice cream soon.
3:03 Had some ice cream and dabs. Somewhat tired but motivated. Having better ease with complex photo editing tasks
4: Finished a photo for Agorist Nexus. The photo was originally done this morning but I used Marx instead of Konkin because he was related to the article. The client preferred something different and I got to work on it. Most don’t know this but I have a hard time retaining technical information for certain things.
Photo Caption: The finished photo on Agorist Nexus
My big example is gimp. Sometimes I forget specific process and have to go to google. But today I intuitively figured out the solution to the problem without even feeling like I was trying. After, I ate some food. Appetite was fine and overall feelings were great.
5: I just finished some research after laying in bed with gut pain. At first I wanted to blame it on the mushrooms but I took such a tiny amount it shouldn’t have mattered. The more time went on the more I started to put things together.
I’ve been eating like 2 avocados a day for several weeks. Part of my autism is I get obsessed with the same foods and will eat them till I literally can’t anymore. That’s what happened with the avocados. Turns out they’re full of sorbitol, something I know I’m sensitive to because extracted it’s used as a sweetener.
Which is somewhat leading me down the rabbit hole of FODMAP intolerance. From what I can tell that’s likely my biggest issue. So it’s time to quit the avocados and seriously look into trying a low FODMAP diet for awhile.
All in all I’ll say I definitely noticed a difference specifically in motivation and thinking capacity. So While I felt physically tired at times my brain was always working and that was evidently enough to keep me motivated today. Even when I felt bad, I was doing research and understanding when usually in those situations I just sit and suffer.
I also made a post on facebook about this which was pretty enlightening. People sharing both their strong experiences and their microdosing adventures gave me a little more confidence by the time it came to do the dose. I waited until after breakfast and likely will do the same again.
Based on suggestions, I plan to experiment with taking slightly higher doses at night. A friend with autism says she sleeps better at night with it, something that sounds appealing. Not sure when I’ll try that but the plan is to blog everything in detail as I go about it.
So far I’d say today is a success, considering I never felt impaired but I did feel just the slightest amount different for most of the day. I didn’t get extra things done, but I think that was more hindered by my apparent intolerance of avocadoes.
I really wanted to like avocados. I just cant.
Anyway I’ve heard part of this is looking at yourself and your decisions and I can’t help but think of that when I consider my discovery of the cause of a food issue that I’ve been dealing with now for a few weeks.
Till tomorrow, stay tuned.
