I can relate so much. D: I got diagnosed with ADHD and autism last year too and I have anxiety on literally everything and anything. The diagnosis reduced my anxiety greatly though, as I didn't have to feel guilty about myself or blame myself for the inconsistence and the inner conflict.

I can't think of any emotion that I'd want to not exist because I also think anxiety is the thing that keeps me together. I don't know if I'll be able to cope with ADHD and autism without anxiety - since anxiety is also the reason why I'm able to do some things to prevent something bad from happening lol. It's very confusing but I also see that if we are able to reduce it greatly that would be so nice. Especially that I am aware that I struggle so much with transitions.

Maybe I can choose burnout as the answer. Is that even an emotion? 😅 I wish I can do a lot of things and not think about not exhausting myself too much. Us neurodivergents burn out so fast that sometimes I feel like I'm "wasting time" "resting".

Congratulations on your diagnosis! Hopefully you are able to find ways of taking care of yourself better now that you are aware of the why's. I still don't know how to, and pretty much think I'm not reaching my full potential.