Im glad i stumbled across this post and you. I feel like i am doing much of the same thing you are. Im taking magnesium which has helped reduce anxiety immensely. Melatonin for better sleep. I feel more level and normal the following morning.

I also discovered that my emotional, physical well bring was spiraling out of control downhill. I eventually had to remove myself from my "life" all together and just start completely over. I found that all the pains that haunted me. The wreckage of my past. I had to just let them go. Move on.

Im now in the process of becoming whole again. The long process.

Following your future posts as im interested to see how your story develops. And because i found nuggets of usable wisdom in this one. Odds are your future posts will help me too.