I feel i have always been fragile in my past when things got exceedingly difficult and i typically collapsed under emotional pain and feelings of low value and worth. As such i ended up homeless and living in my car for over a year, dumpster diving for food and recycling material to sell.

Lately i have had another very damaging and painful thing happen to me none thst will leave scars very deeply. However. This time thanks in part to the hive community ive managed to keep my self worth and ownership of my life and have been fairly resilient. In some ways i think i had a good influence in your behavior that helped. In another way something in me healed in side me because of this traumatic experience and i accept that i am a person of value, character and my self esteem didnt take a hit this time.

Whatever the case may be i am doing things very differently this time. I will be a better person and have a wholesome satisfying life one way or another.