Amen. We all do a little of that "as if" when we go about saying, "Well, my god would never allow (x, y or z) to happen..." but in a sense, we are imagining the god we believe in instead of reading diligently about YHVH as he speaks directly to us in the scriptures. If we do read it, we find out that he did allow the apostles to die horrific deaths, and many times "his people" would even sacrifice their own children to other gods. He did not stop them from doing it but he called his prophets to warn the evil people to stop, or warn them of impending judgement for what they are doing. He gave everyone free will and he doesn't take back his word or his gifts.

It is really great that you come here every week and take in the trinkets of Hebrew that I leave for you.
Thank you.