Met some people I've known and socialized! Was able to convey recent stories. Some involved anguish and strife yet we know it's growing in life. Aww, yeah, the growing pains. Unable to give any details for privacy reasons. Yet huh, I understand, went over that story of the Soundcloud rappers, haha! I am an emo I guess but not Soundcloud, more like DSound! Minus tatt-toonz and the drugz. Just all about hugz here! You can only be my Ome if you are strong enough NOT to cut yourself! Otherwise you may OweMe! OhMe!
Performed some songs tonight. Just had backing tracks and did poetry/lyrics. I did lyrics from my notebook that I put up on Dsound very recently! https://dsound.audio/#/@havok777/stranger-to-fiction2-2017-12-12-5 It was a really good time! I think it bopps people up a bit when I do some kinda music performance. All the backing tracks used I melded together myself. Much of the sound is loops, not all my own. Still like to put things together just for fun. Will work on making tracks that are exclusively my own with maybe the odd sample in there. I like messing with pure samples too. I like to do a bit of all!
Alright now well I could mention...my friends younger brother had some kind of break down. Won't say more about it. Also another friends young son is having problems in school. Getting in trouble for fidgeting. I say leave the boy alone! Just saying those kinda vibes are coming to my attention recently. It all goes back for me when I was growing up as a kid too. I chose to remember all of my life as much as possible. Don't want to lose that sense of grip. I do spend some times with younger people and see them trying to make sense. I feel for their struggle. I think now I know how to separate myself from the crowd and still be an influence. Finding the right kinda ways to get community more together. At least with the people we know, for now.
This is just a little update before bed. I have to say it was a really good day! Again relaxing enough to feel a little bit more back to myself. That allows me to get more creative and focused! Working all the times and being stressed drove me to be more scatterbrained than I would ever have liked. I don't like that. Yet I feel close to the point where for the first time in my life I might not feel as overwhelmed in certain ways as I used too...situationally.
