"Yesterday, I had another brief panic attack about how I wasn't getting anywhere, but then I thought about it and once again came to the conclusion that I have nothing to compete with popular booktokers; after all, I have my own path. Let them do what they want, I'm different. What difference does it make to me what they do? I'm an individual with my own worldview, and we're different generations. I'll manage everything my way." Bravo! More people need to think this way. i hope you continue to do well and take care of yourself.