Over the past decades, the amount of high cholesterol food I've been taking, the amount of cigarettes I've been consuming, the number of late night partying I've been wasting myself in, I'm just glad I can see the sun again, and have a chance walking by the roadside thinking about all these

You have a great attitude and ability to self-reflect about what may have lead to this situation in the first place. Hopefully you can use this in order to have the strength to recover and get back all your mobility again.