If as of today all my fears disappears, what I would do is to stop hiding one of my biggest inspiration that is in my sketchbook. What I would firstly do is come up with a design practice focused on decent, affordable spaces for those who often handed whatever is cheapest.
This idea has been in my sketch-book for a while now and I have done several adjustments on it which contains a family space with adequate ventilation system and natural airflow, a mini mart that welcomes daylight, a home that that is convenient and comfortable for people even though the budget is small. I have spent countless of time making sure it is perfect on my pad, yet I hesitate to market and show it to those who might be interested in it.
I will call that an uncommon thing about my fear. I always tell my self that it must be to perfection with experience, enough money and someone willing to pay. And that is because those things are very crucial and important, but in other times, they are also respectable excuse. I am also being afraid on not being looked down upon, judge, not being supported and getting to know that my dream is just a dream no one might actually support.
Letting go of the fear, I will walk up to top people in the field, pitch my Ideas to them and discuss about the project. I will make some travelling, not just to enjoy myself, but to see the concept and ideas on how ordinary people elsewhere makes their home functional. I will be open to new ideas and be ready to improve instead of sitting on just what I know.
I will be extremely careful when it comes to signing any contract or agreement, and even check figures twice and read through everything. I do not want to become desperate, I only want to stop letting embarrassment make my decisions.
Perhaps, maybe when the fear is gone, I will send out the proposal just the way it is instead of readjusting or adding more either. Because not ever dreams requires a perfect start, sone just needs someone who will see the potential In me.
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