But this is my new/old hobby. Chatting to people on steemit and showing them the same respect they show others. You repay kindness with kindness.

You fucked up but you wanna make it right and that is obviously great. That don't mean we forget and forgive so easily. If you don't like someone then don't speak to them. If some noob gets involved in one your stupid fights you don't need to ruin them for not knowing better. They just looking to lick your ass or the other whale you choose to fight with atm for a little upvote.

Please do not delude yourself into thinking you did not ruin this experience for many people. That is the first step to recovery.