I spent November getting a lot of work done. I wrote a lot of articles for the month and some for December. So far, this month has been stress-free. I'm on a break from work which has given me a lot of free time. There's been a lot of retrospection & planning for the coming year. I have a series of wins from 2022. I started writing and making money from it, read a lot of books and articles, prioritized my mental health, made amazing friends, and unlearned a lot of internalized toxicity. Above all, accepting and living wholly in my originality is my biggest win.
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Before now, I always thought that my actions, thoughts, and preferences were subpar. There was a strong craving to be acceptable by people. I wanted people to have a certain perception of me, the one I've created in my head that was highly unrealistic. When I started writing, I was posting it on Instagram and I was basically living in another person's shadow. I read them a few weeks ago and I cringed so hard that I had to delete the posts. I didn't post the songs I loved because I felt it wasn't cool enough.
I'm free now, from the shackles of what people would say or think. It would be profoundly dishonest for me to say I give 0 fucks but I don't give a lot anymore. I realized that most of the things I shied away from like my music taste are so baseless. Now that I've accepted my individuality and everything that comes with me, I've been happier. Writing has become easier because I do it with my voice so I hardly run out of content.
For the new year, I'm looking forward to being more vocal about my wants, ideas, and thoughts. I also want to be free from imposter syndrome because it has such a tight grip on me. Once I win the battle, I'm going to be unstoppable.
Besides my reflection, I've been up to quite a few things. Here's a little update
I started Stranger Things and I'm loving it so much. I just completed the second season. It's so good and I'm mad at everyone for not letting me know sooner. Those kids have my heart and Hopper? My love. My friends told me it would get crazier and I'm a bit anxious. I'm so close to browsing for spoilers lol
I'm trying to meet up with my reading challenge for the year. My goal was to read 50 books and I've completed 48. I just finished Americanah by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie and Pachinko by Min Jin Lee and they are amazing books. I hope to write a review. I'm currently reading the second book in the Six of Crows duology, Crooked Kingdom. I'm loving it so far.
I've been talking to my friends a lot. Late-night calls and it's been so beautiful. I love them so much
I'm currently in my grandma's house and this is where I'm spending the holidays.
Also, I've been writing some personal articles in order to build my portfolio so I can get more writing jobs in 2023.
Dreading going back to school in January. Sometimes I question myself for choosing to study law.
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I'm looking forward to spending the holidays with my family and friends. The thought is making me giddy like a child who has been given ice cream. Feed me in on your Christmas plans in the comments.
