Honestly most of what we do is putting animals out of their pain and I hate it to be honest.

If it gets easier, does that mean you are caring less and becoming numb? What a difficult part of your profession. Those poor animals didn't even deserve what happened to them. I hope you find the place where it gets easier but you still don't lose your love for the animals. How about your mom or other rescuers, do they still find it as difficult as before when they started?