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When you live in that moment where anxiety gets worse, at that moment you convince yourself that the evidence shows that you have produced the perfect outcome.
You must take life the way, more like an experiment, try things without attaching yourself to the outcome. You must look, not everything has to work out the way you believe.
We cannot seek nature so we must keep trying to become our best in everything we do and not relent because anything can change at any time and at any moment