We all have a chapter in our lives that we do not read out loud to the hearing of others, we just want to bear the consequences, pain, sadness and hurt alone because it is a chapter that is better buried deep down away from the other chapters.
That chapter of our lives that we do not love to share with anybody not because we do not want them to learn from us but because we know they would see us differently from how they used to see us or grade us. We all have that chapter of our lives that although it's a past chapter, we still do feel the effect, actions, and reactions we took that we wouldn't have if given a second chance.
We know that if given a second chance to go back to that time of our lives, we will amend and re-amend, we will rewind and think deeply and hard about what the best choice is and how to go about it, so it does not leave behind a sore taste in our lips and minds for the rest of our lives.
We all have that chapter in our lives when we still wish we had listened attentively to the advice and words of wisdom of those older and more advanced with experiences than us, we wish we had taken heed and taken their advice, just maybe we would have avoided mistakes and "Had I known."
Although every chapter of our lives is a part of who we are in the future but we do wish that a particular chapter of our lives weren't there to add up to the whole book of our lives. We all have that chapter of our lives that we wished we had not written anything on it instead of having what we currently have on it because that chapter brings memories we do not want to talk about to the hearing of others or tell ourselves even if we had moved past and forgiven ourselves about that chapter a long time ago.
Although we may have forgiven ourselves but the truth remains that, that chapter makes up a very large part of our lives and how we see life, even if it is just a chapter out of the whole chapter of the book of our life, it still plays a significant role in our lives. It would have been better off torn out or not in existence, but it is there and now there is nothing we can do about it other than to live with it forever because it is a part of the chapter of our lives. But then, we live to tell the story someday when we feel comfortable to share it with someone, and till the end of time, it is a part of our life book and lives with us.