Fatherhood is a whole lot of responsibility than most people can understand. You always want to stay on top of things and try to do what's necessary to keep the family together. The pressure hits differently and words can't express it and that is where you see some nonentities talking about billing when they have never had to work for anything in their lives by shabby thinking that men should have certain level of money to spoil them with.

Sorry about your dad. His absence must have made you stronger.