THE WORLD NEAR ME (Jiashan)
because the world is what you can see with your eyes
It's easy to say that time heals all. I go through ups and downs.
I reread words that I wrote in those days, about photos stolen from an ethereal beauty.
The heart speeds up.
It's easy to say control your emotions, control your thoughts.
It's easy for those looking from the outside. not for me.
I'm weak, I can't fight the strength of it all. not staying here. I have to go.
The distance will help me heal.
Being here and seeing her again destabilizes me, it makes my soul vibrate like the first time I saw her.
She's gorgeous. what I feel does not lose intensity.
It's there, haunting me day after day as I wonder why?
It's easy to forget about my love. let it be. turn the page.
Indifference and silence hurt more than the blade.
There are nights like this when I want to go out and scream.
I cannot. then I'll write a song. if crying is weak, I should be ashamed.
Pain was inevitable because only in pain is there change.
We both knew from the start what was going to happen.
But we moved on.
We became a star and then we exploded leaving room for a black hole that swallowed everything.
This is the price to pay for happiness. I assure you that that happiness was immense.
As immense as the void that left her lost. but
My daily report
I'm still alive and I'm still here
-Gidien-
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