Depression is an asshole. Just when you start to let your guard down, he pops out the bushes with a Rick James 5-finger slap to the face. Or something like that :)

Wish I could tell ya everything will be fine, or that you'll get through it, but really you're the only one who can tell yourself that with any bit of honesty.

That's one of the worst things about depression is that it's personal. No ones depression is exactly the same, so anyone who says they know how you feel can kick rocks. They might think they do from their own experience, but that's only good enough to recommend some things that helped them and hope it helps you.

For example, my bouts of depression are usually brought on by anxiety. I'm a notorious worrier. I am also the type of person who will bite off more than they can chew because I like challenge. Of course then I stress myself out which causes anxiety, which leads to being depressed, which leads to me not wanting to do a damn thing except lay in bed and sleep. After whatever amount of time I'll usually shame myself into action. Which brings the cycle back around to the beginning where I start thinking I'm invincible again by overloading myself.

That is my experience. Most likely it is nothing like yours.

Point I guess I'm trying to make is:

Don't let anyone tell you how to handle your own experience with depression. Only you are able to understand what you're going through, which means you are the only one who can identify the best way to minimize it's effects on your life.

I wish you well and much happiness!