You are a creative person. You get praised by people around you. They think you are special. They think you have a gift. I think most parts of my life, I have being called as a creative person. I like being creative and I like the fact that I can call my self an artist. However this gift also comes with a few bus in the system.
You can’t just be OK with the world
Everybody around you seem to be paddling along fine. They like their jobs. They have a family They seem happy. They are very comfortable with the system. I think as an Artist you can’t settle. You can’t be ok with the system. I had this since when I was a kid. I didn’t like the school. I didn’t like my town. I didn’t like my friends. It was very hard to accept what was around me. So I always get a pen and paper and I would…I would sketch my world. My alternative world where everything is built and works the way I want it.
This the hardest thing being an artist. I find it very hard to socialise. I know it’s probably because I am an introvert. Normal people seems to be fine having a conversation. Normal people would have a conversation about anything. First I thought alcohol might help but alcohol is like the worst conversation starter for me. It would just depress me. No conversation is seem to be stimulating for me. The best conversation is the one that I am having right now. With myself!. So if you think you are going to make real friends in a bar, I am sorry to let you down it won’t happen. It’s better to go back to your room and write something, draw something or make anything but not conversation with external humans.
I think this is something many artists have accepted for themselves. You cant’ make money being an artist. I still struggle to make a living out of my art. However after reading a bunch of business books, listening to podcasts and YouTube I think I finally realised that artists brain doesn’t quite understand the mechanisms of making money. See, making money is not that hard. Just like anything else if you learn about it you will slowly start to make sense of it. As an artist your money making brain seem to be not functioning at all. You think money is evil. You might also convinced that money is a destroyer of artist soul. I think this is not entirely true. I think all artists can make a good fortune if they spend a little bit of time learning about it. Of course it’s not natural for them but financial freedom would definitely help an artist to make better art.
I think most of artists actually like to be alone. I know I love my solitude. Since you have a hard time socialising with normal people you can’t have meaningful relationships even if you want to. Sometimes this can be very depressing. However since you are an artist, you will find ways to get yourself busy and emerge in your work so it looks like you are too busy to have a relationship anyway. Worse when you actually have a partner that you are deeply in love with. You know you are very fond of that person but yet you never feel like you are fulfilled intellectually.
This is sad but guess what!? You are strange. You are deep and you are closed in. How on earth would someone else can come to your world and fix those wounds?
Being an artist is hard but it’s a wonderful gift. You can use that gift to make this world a little bit better place than how you found it.
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