I think perhaps your goulash childhood memories were better than mine 🤣 Let's just say I'm more of an al dente kind of guy now, when it comes to all pasta based dishes.

Thank you for sharing the family photos as well as the heartbreak that your family has experienced. I see so much love in your family and tight bonds that have lasted generations through this love.

I once tested the sharpness of Mom's best butcher knife against my wrist. Then I caught a whiff of that chocolate sheet cake Mom makes from scratch.
Nobody eats chocolate, six feet under.
Well, that settled that.

Fate would have it that my own suicide attempts in life have gone wildly wrong, and through a 10 year addiction hit my head very hard on concrete multiple times and woke up in hospitals with doctors telling me I ingested enough drugs to kill 3 men, that I was a medical mystery.

It seems your mothers chocolate must have been some really good stuff considering it stopped you from what you were going to do, and I'm glad it didn't happen because you are such a gifted person with so much insight and love to give to your family and others, which is very apparent in looking at your blog for a mere 30 minutes.

If heaven exists, it must include time travel, and it must allow us little excursions like Sunday dinner at Grandma's, or the dinners that should have happened but didn't because too many loved ones are taken from us so soon.

It's a depressing thought, to think what some of these dinners would have been with the loved one's who are no longer here with us.

I come from a rather broken family, and none of them seem to be able to let go of the past, which makes for sparse family get togethers, none of which I will attend because of these grudges and unwillingness to sit down as adults and talk about things so that we can all heal together.

I wonder in the end if anyone will say "We should have just let all that stuff go and just be a family."

I like to flirt with the idea that I'm perhaps a time traveler, here to build a brighter future for all :)

Great post, now I want goulash :)