Sometimes it’s hard to find that balance in life. It’s okay to stop, re-think, re-plan and make changes.
Though you have some tough decisions to make, based on your post here, you are aware of your situation, have thought about different plans and are seeing how best you can serve your family and meet their needs. You’ve worked hard and also deserve some good sleep. I wish you and your family all the best as you make the next steps and decisions.