You've clearly been through quite a lot in your life, and it hasn't been easy. Searching for meaning is an important part of everyone's life, and I think we can all relate to wanting to find our value in the world. I think that the process of life itself is often a search for such meaning, and that in searching for the meaning, we are fulfilling our purpose. Some find their purpose early, and others later - and that's ok because we're all different.

Some questions your message made me ponder:

What have you been doing with your life so far? What, in your personal view, would bring you happiness? Are you capable of doing something that would bring you the things that would make you happy?

Please do let me know.