Don't be sorry for anything. That is something that I tell everyone. There is not enough time to be sorry, but plenty of time for understandings and compassion. You did not mislead me by the way. This is the internet and reading isn't always the best way to see everything. I might put an exclamation at the end of a sentence because I am excited about something not because I'm shouting. Same thing.

Admitting to your father, opening up about something that has been bothering you, true honesty, did
he understand what you are saying? I hope so. I just want you to know that I hear you and I see you. It is easier to tell someone to keep being in good spirits than it is to be in good spirits.

If weed is what is keeping you here, then I am happy that it does not give you the same effect it did me.

If you need a complete stranger to talk to, someone who doesn't know you, that can hear you, where you can say what ever the hell you want, DM me. All I have that is free to give is time :0)