Thanks for the support @abitcoinskeptic it really means a lot to me. Crimsonclaw is helping me putting this in a proposal, maybe it'll set an example for everyone that wants to make a personal proposal. I'm sure I'm not the only one in this type of situation that had any ill intent. And like you pointed out an apology is the least we can do. But no matter what the outcome is, I'm here to stay :)