Hello Precious @wolfofnostreet, am very sorry you feel terrible sometimes. I know how you feel because I have been in a similar situation and am a Nigerian like you. Just be strong, this things come and go, but you will eventually have all the things you ever wanted. I would want us to chat if possible. I already dropped my number so we can get in touch. Check this your post:
RE: 5-Minute Freewrite Monday Prompt - The New Normal