I'm In conflict between two specific ideals of how I see this world
On one hand I want to get to know the humans, I do indeed find them fascinating in theory. The more I learn about them, the more I still do not know.
On the other hand the very nature of them infuriates me, The mere sight of them make my blood boil. don't really like being next to them for too long.
But I understand their nature, though I consider it rather unjust and quite frustrating at times. I do have some good times with them.
I like being around animals and watching them in their habitat. thinking why would human inflict harm on them because they are different. They are never judge to anyone, I guess if you have good energy they will know.
I guess this is why I feel for the animals, because I can relate to their pain.
You know for a species I completely despise, I am awfully nice to them.
I guess I challenge myself, no matter how much I can't stand them I will go out of way to be nice to them
Why?
I guess I don't ever want anyone for ever experience what was done to me at my own hand
I guess I hold myself of a higher standard that everyone else does, which is why I spend most of my days alone.
I like the world I build for myself, it's peaceful and full of many wonders.
