When I heard about Bohemian Rhapsody, the Freddie Mercury biopic, I was nervous about seeing it. Who could be Freddie? Nobody, I thought. Then the reviews emerged - mixed. And then Rami Malek, contrary to critics' expectations, won the Oscar. My interest was piqued and after hearing from contemporaries that they loved it, I wanted to see it. Living where we do, and not getting to the big city the cinema very often, I was delighted when our local thespian laid his hands on a newly released copy of the Blu Ray and showed it at his theatre.
With reservations and with great anticipation, I went to see the film. It is not the best film ever made - by a long shot. Malek is wooden and tries too hard to be Freddie. The actors playing Roger Taylor (and I loved his solo album, The Pros and Cons of Hitchhiking) and John Deacon were similarly wooden. "Brian May" was probably the most comfortable in his character. Despite all this -
[the film]...made out that Freddy was a (sic) AIDS sufferer supporter...which is complete bullshit. If you read the auto biography Freddy was promiscuous almost beyond belief...he literally had a queue of young men outside his hotel room door who came in one-by-one to provide Freddy with an 'all night service'. And then when he got Aids, (how surprising), he hid it as long as he possibly could and did nothing to remove its stigma or do anything for other sufferers. Freddy was a million miles away from being the saint they paint him as in the movie.My response then:
It was honest without being as brutal as it could have been. Call me old and soft, but I appreciated that.I went to see the film a second time and enjoyed it as much. It also made me reflect even more on the extent to which Freddie has been villified in some quarters. Largely unfairly, I believe:
This means that we, like Freddie and his contemporaries, grew up in a homophobic world before AIDS and HIV: it reared its head as a public health issue (and with terror tactics) in what would have been our last year or two of university. It was highly stigmatised: it was a gay disease; it was also a disease of promiscuity. It was, and for some still is, the equivalent of Biblical leprosy. Notwithstanding the fact that there is now enough reliable information in the public domain which gives a lie to all of that.
During 1989, and when it was gay men who were most concerned about becoming infected, I had the mixed blessing of having a gay friend who discovered that his new partner, with whom he had hoped to have a permanent relationship, was HIV positive. The partner had not disclosed and they'd been having unprotected sex. My friend and I went to see the film Longtime Companion, a classic about a community of friends confronting the ravages of AIDS. My friend had broken up with his earstwhile partner but was waiting for the outcome of the first of several tests necessary to find out his status. It was still in the window period and then there would be the wait for a further six months. The results are not important. What is important is that my friend is one of the least promiscuous people I have ever known. He knew, and would talk about Fire Island and the gay lifestyle; he had lived in, and returned to Florida. I have forgotten none of his agony, anger nor relief.
That agony can only be second to the agony of someone grappling with coming out and which includes having to acknowledge to themselves and to a still hostile society, their sexual preference and its implications. I have had the privilege of walking alongside two dear friends as they have taken this step. It's neither a choice, and nor does coming out make life easier. It just makes life different and choices different. Nor, in 2019, does it mean that the world is accepting and not homophobic.
Although he was born in Zanzibar, his father was employed by the British Colonial Service (as incidentally was mine) which sent him there from his native India (the family were Parsis from the Gujarati region, and were Zoarastrians). The young Freddie was sent back to India to an English "public school-like" boarding establishment. What parent, today, relishes sending their children to boarding school? Less so now that the conduct of certain school masters and initiation practices are increasingly being publicly acknowledged as "established" phenomena. A few years later, in 1964 when Freddie was just 18, the Zanzibar revolution, led by Muslims, forced the family to flee. Nowhere else to go, they ended up in London where he clearly didn't fit in. To add insult to injury, it was assumed he was from Pakistan, a country run by Muslims, the very people that hounded the family from Zanzibar - with nothing. Source
This would have been tough for any adolescent, especially for someone sensitive, with enormous talent and unconventional looks; I can only imagine how he felt about himself as a young adult. Having had my own journey having my teeth "fixed" and my mother making a big deal about my ears, along with all the other "you're-ugly-and-your-mother-dresses-you-funny" experiences of my childhood and adolescence in boarding school, I have an inkling.
About his being gay, one of Freddie's biographers says:
The world has changed so much. He was a arecording artist in the ’70s and ’80s, two decades when the level of homophobia is difficult for anyone born after 1980 to fully comprehend. In particular, Britain and the USA were scary places for gay people, and the onset of AIDS gave license to the religious fulminators and right-wing zealots.Hiding his HIV status and developing a larger than life persona that sheltered the deeper, sensitive, private human being must have been Freddie's survival strategy. The debauchery, which was touched upon in the film was a combination of what was expected of a rock star, the machinations of another lost soul who had found his meal ticket (or so he thought), as well as Freddie's own proclivities and insecurities.
Freddie was no saint, that much is clear. Perhaps his feet of clay did not feature in the film as much as his detractors might have liked.
With hindsight, two songs strike me as particularly poignant. Was this, for most of his life, Freddie's quest?
Photo: Selma
