I just spent a significant(for me) sum on glasses. I hate paying so much but I would not rent them even if I could. I never pay by installments. Right now I want to buy level 3 VALNAMOR. It costs too much so I am not buying it (also it seems that someone already bought it). But I want to own what I have. In the words of my favorite manga charater Guts:

I don’t want what another man can give me. If he grants me anything, then it’s his to give and not my own.