Since I love him many new experiences I can get.
Indeed he does not know that I love him from behind, indeed he does not know that I admire him secretly.
I know that it is very unlikely I can get it.
But my spirit has not faded to get it.
At the moment I do not care about him, retreat is not the right choice for me, but my spirits are increasing.
As people say, that failure is the beginning of success.
And now I am patient in loving her.
in this waiting I choose love the previous book.
Because in my heart always said that one day he will be my right.
But I can not convince him.
Now I can only ask Allah Almighty for all his gala.