I now see it as just a senseless way to add spice to this mundane life.

That is pretty much what people do, they drink and party to forget they have shitty lives, but, the good thing is, you already not depending on going out, this distance can be good for you to develop something on HIVE or any other project you may have going on, i think you should keep writing, this will help your ideas going to place and also serves like a diary to know how you are progressing! Keep you shin up, everything is going to be ok...