Everything has a sense homeostasis,
When something is the odd one out, I try to push it into place or remove it altogether.
It provides me with a sense of control and order, as if to control the chaos within me.
That one drawer that is not pushed in correctly, has to be pushed in before I leave that room.
Those blinds that are hanging unevenly will have to be evened out.
Despite feeling like I'm a little bit of a perfectionist when it comes to such things, life is so much more complex, messy and uneven. In this world I am only able to bare what I control, and I am only able to control myself.
My mind is filled with a crazy that feels beyond control , but that world is a madness of its own, one that is different for the next person , I believe I lack drama in my life, solely because I have no capacity for it.
But all this madness, may be tons of little nothings stung together, chaining me down, and identifying them is liberating.
There often method to peoples madness, but because we do not understand who they are, we cannot comprehend that the madness is order. The they radio plays on a different frequency.
It is only after we taste the type of chaos they have, does our radio have the able to tune in.
We are all wired a little differently but living life, gives all of us reasons to connect.
Just because we do not understand what we see does not always mean that the world is mad.
Until next time...
