Well I thought I was going to be on here way more than I have been over the past few months, but a few things have been holding me back. Mainly that I haven't been actively pushing myself to be motivated to create content. I also said in my last post that I would begin to document several experiences I've had with psychoactives and altered states, and this actually became a huge roadblock for me. I started my recount of my initial experience with orally active DMT and, after writing several pages over a few weeks, determined that I need to break it up into two parts. The first part will be more of a literal description of the events that took place (whether "real" or hallucinated), and the second section will be a space for me to analyze and break down the experience from a more (hopefully) objective point of view.
Unfortunately, these choices still haven't been enough to get more content up here. I made somewhat of a mistake choosing to do DMT for the intro to these posts. If any of you reading this have experienced it, you probably know it's more ineffable than just about anything else you can go through in this life. Trying to give an accurate description of an intense psychedelic experience is a fool's game really, but I haven't given up! As I said in my intro post, I struggle to always be confident that my posts or thoughts are good enough, or thorough enough, or will impact people enough, but I'm trying to drop that attitude since it's not only a worthless perspective to take on life, but I've had many friends tell me that my thoughts on these subjects are definitely worth sharing. So I hope I see you all soon in my upcoming posts and elsewhere. Thank you!
