reading your article made me cry as this is what this is also what I'm going through, I lost my Dad when I was 27 not a day pass that I didn't miss him until my Mom passed away two years ago and every day I miss both of them. If only I can trade anything just to have them back I would. I know living in the present is what is needed for me to do but still no matter how I accept that they'll never be back still its different. It's as if every day I died with them too.