Outside of my introductory post, I thought I would start this new journey by giving a little more insight into my line work and why I fell in love with doing it.
Being judged by others is something which has always fueled my insecurities. The world can be a cruel place and so can the people in it. For as far back as I can remember, this has been a worry of mine. Fear of judgement, fear of failure, being laughed at, mocked and the list goes on. This insecurity even began to show itself in my creative journey and that broke my heart.
There is nothing worse than doubting yourself every step of the way. It is a bit of a vicious circle really. The more you break yourself down internally, the less you have left each and every time, until carrying on becomes something that seems practically impossible.
It was actually because of my own self criticisms that I began exploring abstract art more. I have always doodled and it is something I love doing. I think I would even say I have always found it one of the most therapeutic art forms because there is just no right or wrong. Sure, they say there is no right or wrong in art at all, but if you are doing a painting or drawing of a cat and the proportions are not as they should be, someone is going to judge that somewhere along the line.
I found very quickly that abstract art dissolved that fear of mine. I was able to just put raw emotion onto "paper". Pattern, shape and color is something which has always fascinated me and exploring the world of abstract art began to feed that fascination and build my confidence instead of destroying it.
In the introduction post I wrote yesterday, I shared a little bit about why I draw lines. It probably seems a little silly to some "looking in", but for me it holds deep emotional symbolism and each time I begin a piece it also acts as a reminder of how far I have come.
I suppose a finely tuned artistic eye would hold some level of appreciation for the time it takes to build layers which ultimately (well, hopefully at least) evoke some kind of emotional reaction from an onlooker. but yes, it is a process. A very therapeutic one of letting go and getting lost in the strokes, the blending of colors and the becoming of a piece of art.
This particular piece is called Auspicious adventure. The emotions and thoughts which moved through me in waves as I created it were about the sense of freedom I began to feel as I created it. A great sense of relief or weight lifted off my shoulders to have finally discovered a way for me to express myself in a completely safe space and seeing it evolve into a beautiful piece of art.
Sure, I create other kinds of art and I will share some of that with you too as I unfold into this new space, but my collection of line work (which is ever growing) is definitely my favorite to create, and that is the most important part of creating art really, isn't it.
Thx for reading,
ELLA <3
