A new day. A new man. A new experience. She never wondered who would be the one to change her. Her awful ways. She contradicted herself so much. She couldn't even understand herself.
Lay her down. Lay her down. Never to know if anything meant anything. Little things would distract her, from what she really wanted. What she really wanted was out of reach.
She was a hopeless romantic? She just wanted love and affection. But not like any other. Nobody would ever understand her needs and desires or if they could, then didn't have enough to make her dream reality. She needed a perfect fit, a stability, a glance, humour, passion. She wanted an equal.
She wanted to gracefully let go... Of everything. Life. Her life. Leave everyone behind. But that was weak. She wasn't a weak women and she knew more was always to come! Things could change. She couldn't tell the future through a crystal ball.
She used to have loyalty and respect. She was numb now. Detached from everything. One tear she shed, but not for anyone. Just for the life she lived. Why was it her with the wrong end of the straw. Who knows maybe she doesn't feel that way anymore
