Clear your mind

For you who are feeling this way
Stop it. Clear your mind. Take a breathe. Understand that even the fact that you want to achieve something in your life, that inner desire itself, tells you that you have the right potential to have it. But it is your fear from shinig and your fear from failing during the process that holds you back. It is your fear that is causing you to feel this way. Take the risk and let go of fear. Your inner self wanting to achieve it is telling you that you have all what it needs to achieve it.

That's the only thing that has come out of this struggle. I've literally been looking my whole life and certain things I know now I cannot do. There are things I want to do, I just need to figure out how to be good enough to get to do them as a career. Because the mundane just isn't enough anymore. I'm in a place where I'm over-qualified for mundane so no one will hire me. About to be homeless in a month or two because no one is hiring me. Sometimes I wish I never left the job that was so awful to me it was making me physically sick. But since I rediscovered art & writing, I'm glad for it, even if I end up losing everything.