It may seem exaggerated that feeling an experience under the effects of LSD has forever changed my critical filter of reality analysis. Other people, who have not tried it, try to understand it according to what they know, usually using an understanding filter based on their experience with alcohol. But alcohol, limits the ability to understand, alcohol makes us complete idiots.
We drink alcohol to remind ourselves how unhappy we are and set out to get immediately and using any means, all those superficial things that we miss in our lives, throwing ourselves to try to get them without any capacity for it, selfishly if necessary.
For this reason, it is a drug so culturally accepted, because the pattern of behavior that stands out on a drunkard, is a representative example of the schema of reasoning, used to interpret existence, by the great mass of individuals that make up society.
Now I can no longer think that life is pain as some philosophies affirm, but quite the contrary, for me life is pleasure, every moment, every thought, even the experimentation of pain, is also pleasure. The pleasure of being able to feel life, of being a self-conscious system immersed in the magnificence of the Whole, and even conditioned by all its laws, possibly by the cause - effect deduction of all the axioms that gave rise to the origin (the arrangement of each atom, the amount of energy released during the Big Bang ...). Be able to "Separate" as much as possible from the greatness to be able to observe it and enjoy its splendor.
A totally routine act like observing my body in front of the mirror, allowed me to understand, under the effects of LSD, that all the characteristics that are part of my humanity, are an abbreviation of greatness. I am a part of the fractal from which the whole universe can be deduced.
Instead, my feelings began to consider a arrogant insult to greatness the idea of conceptualizing myself as an abbreviation of the Whole. I started to saw me how a dirty man, like a black dot on a blank paper sheet, an ugly stain on the mayor purity that exists, a parasite being that hinders the flow of energy that moves the entire universe, modifying its course to penetrate in the vehicle with the which I runs through three-dimensionality, to circulate in my mind generating all my thoughts and emotions through an effect analogous to that described by Joule's law.
I observed my feet that seemed like chicken feet and they took root on the ground, on Earth, from where I get all my sustenance, as a separate part of the same but attached to it by my condition of parasite, spectator.
Suddenly I was able to connect for a moment with the beauty, I could feel as the flow crossed through my body and my mind without generating in me any type of thought, only the emotion of knowing that I was in consistency with the Whole.
I could feel all wisdom and all the knowledge of the universe could penetrate me if I wished to participate in his greatness.
But for this, I would had give up my condition of being a spectator, I would renounce to remember this knowledge to use it or to describe it in the future, I would forget that there is something called Time, I would understand that only there is the present moment and that the only thing that matters is to feel the immensity of the Whole in the eternally present moment.
But, It is part of my parasite nature that I cannot forget for an interim greater than an instant that there is something called time. It is impossible for me, as a spectator, to observe all these riches and not try to save them for the future, that is why, immediately the flow was interrupted, because of my need to want to leave a trace, everything disappeared and I was watching myself in front of the mirror trying of observing what is impossible to observe, the point at the center of two mirrors that are placed facing each other.
Then I looked again at my feet, which still seemed like chicken feet, connected to the immensity. I decided to assume my role as a spectator and to thank the infinite. After, I started to feel goodness, I felt a love in the flow and I understood that there is a place for me inside of the unlimited. I realized that greatness can not be such if there is no observer capable of marveling with such beauty. I felt as necessary for greatness as greatness is for me and I stopped feeling insignificant inside my infinite insignificance. I understood that the point where the observer is located, the point that destroys the perfection, the symmetry, is the point where a fractal cycle ends and a new pattern begins conditioned by a new axiom the conclusion of its observation.
Source: https://steemit.com/lsd/@eusebio/lsd-y-la-condicion-del-espectador
