The greatest regret I had was never spending much time with you, I traveled to my place not knowing I would never come back to see you, I blamed myself for not staying a day with you before your death but It is what it is, who am I to blame God because I know you are in a better place.
When I got a call to come back home, I asked why? Not knowing you were gone, I wept as if my world had crashed, you left a space that no one would be able to fill even my mother couldn't because we were more than close.
I called her my big mummy, she was everything to me when she was alive, she would wake up in the morning to pray for me even when I was not with her, and her calls would wake me up in the morning to do morning devotion, she treated me as if she was the one that gave birth to me, most people don't know my mother but believe this is my real mother.
I found joy whenever I was talking to her, she was the only one I could confide in, she nurtured me since I was a child and our bond was more than an ionic, she treated me like her own and I always felt comfortable when we were together.
She was my backbone when she was alive, she was the true definition of strong, she is so calm and always avoids trouble from family members, I learned a lot from her lifestyle because she took life so simply and never put anyone in her mind, she is a giver, she can give her last money and prefer to go hunger just to put a smile on someone's face, she is so industrious and always encourage me never to give up on life.
She died on the 30th of July 2021 after she celebrated her birthday, I couldn't make it to her birthday because I was writing exams, her birthday was on the 20th of July, I finished my exams and traveled to see her, we were together and she narrated everything that happened on her birthday and showed me pictures, she reserved cake for me and also showed me the gifts people gave her, we talked all night and she prayed for me as usual. I spent some days in her place before heading back to my city, I got back to my place and she called to ask if I was at home and we talked that night.
The following morning she called me as usual and we spoke at length, she called me on her to be independent after my exams and how she has been telling her friends about me and how to secure a job for me, not too long my big sister called me which is her daughter, she said mummy is dead, I said not possible, immediately I picked my phone and called her but she was responding, I pick my bag and headed back to her place which took me three hours journey, I was shocked to hear that she is dead, she had a cardiac arrest that morning and before they rushed her to the hospital she is gone, that is how we didn't get to say goodbye, I cried my eyes out because I have never heard of something like that, I spoke with her in the morning and before I know it she is dead, is that how people die?
Her legacy will never be forgotten because she united us all, we behave as if we were born of the same mother, her life taught me a lesson that this life is just like a market and we are returning home one day, I never expected her to leave so soon but it is well. I know she is in a better place. I think about you every single day. The memories we made together are treasured. I can still hear your voice, see your face, feel your comforting embrace. You live on in my heart.
This is my entry for this week's episode of hivelearners community prompt of #hl-w117e1 which the topic is IN LOVING MEMORY"
