I'm glad to see you're doing well with the pool. I did fear you'd slipped back into the gaming. Anyway, there's that great period of sucking that comes with anything new, and we have to laugh through being terribad and eventually, competence emerges. I noticed that as I improve at something, I begin to notice the genius in others more, and that makes me feel like I haven't improved - so I take a record of some kind. For my drones, it's the occasional video clip. I guess if I took up bowling, it'd be recording scores sometimes.
Do stick with it, for all the great reasons you said and because of what it represents in managing the BPD.