I'm sorry you have to go through pain again and I hope things can get better for you, without much suffering. Also, I'd like to suggest again, to look for more appropriate community, before deciding to post in OCD. I would suggest Emotions and Feelings and Ladies of Hive, just like last time.

Here's a guide I put together to help you learn about how communities work and why you should use them -> Communities Explained - Newbie Guide. I also put together a list of communities, which is not complete, there are much more communities on Hive, but it will help you get started.

Once you posted your post in the right community, you can then cross post it to OCD community. Here's a guide about cross posting.