I'll give this song a listen later today. I always gravitated towards calmer music when I was younger. Even with Metallica I shunned everything but the Black album. I always viewed the heavier stuff as anxiety-inducing. As I've gotten older I gravitate towards the heavier music because I realize now it's more about release.

I'm sorry to hear about those struggles you had to go through in your younger years but am glad you've found a way to heal and a better place. It's freeing when you get to a point where you're comfortable sharing these kinds of vulnerabilities.